Baby #3

My child, 

Carrying you this far (26 weeks) is a challenge for me but I'm not whining and I must say I have waited long enough to get pregnant again. The gap between you and Abang Yusuf is 5 years and I think that is long enough I couldn't wait any longer!! Mama and Dedi weren't trying to conceive during the first month of marriage. We got married on 11th September 2018 and we found out that we're pregnant on December at 6 weeks pregnant. Mama said to Dedi, I can't wait to be pregnant again, I miss those little kicks and wiggles in my belly. Oh my, I only thought of the beautiful journey of pregnancy without realising that it might be gloomy at some point. I'll get to that gloomy part soon. Before I took that pregnancy test, my body felt different even a week before I started to be fussy, craving for DURIANNNNN and feel uneasy when it comes to crowded place. Mama and Dedi went to JBR Bundle and I can't stand being inside that warehouse as I felt so stuffy and lack of oxygen. So back to the test, I peed on the stick waited for a while and I was right. I'm pregnant with you my child, my baby number 3. I showed the result to Dedi and we hugged for the longest time. Dedi was having mixed feelings because we were unstable financially but I convinced him, InsyaAllah if there is a will, there is a way. 

My first trimester. 

Baby, you made me vomit like crazy. Constantly vomiting and I can't have rice with any dish that is oily. You love to eat fruits, croissants, anything but rice. You're not a fan of veges too but you love cold drinks or is it just me? Hehe,  Our first visit to KK was stressful, maybe I was too excited that we went to KK earlier than people normally do. I have to pee twice to prove that I'm pregnant because when we did the scan, the doctor didn't see you. You were too tiny at 6 weeks. The doctor referred us to Hospital Sg Buloh to use a special machine to see you from down under and to make sure you're in the right place to grow. If I'm having an ectopic pregnancy, then I have to say bye bye to you but luckily you're safe and sound. Alhamdlillah the second visit to the hospital went well and you keep on growing until now. Here comes the gloomy part. Constantly vomiting and loss of appetite, stress at work and home makes me lose weight slowly and that causes my HB to decrease as well from 11.6 to 10.3 which is not a good sign. I have a problem of eating the vitamin that KK provided as it will make me vomit even worse so I changed to Blackmores that contains every nutrient in one capsule. Little did I know, the dosage of the nutrient needed is insufficient for me so it didn't help me to increase my HB level at all. Thank you very much. So after being advised, I switched back to the vitamin given by KK. 

My second trimester. 

I feel like I've neglected my health and yours too. With everything that is happening at the workplace and home, I think that I should take some rest until giving birth and start working later. After doing some thinking, I finally resigned and became a full-time housewife. I can say that it is very challenging to be pregnant, working, handling two growing boys and being a wife, living with your parents there is just too much drama to handle. After resigning, I felt happier. It's time for Dedi to take the responsibility to be the breadwinner and my time to rest until you arrive. My appetite is slowly coming back, and Dedi is so understanding he would help me around with chores, massage me every night, spend time with us, telling us how much he loves us. For Ramadhan this year, I didn't fast cs I get thirsty easily and ohhhh bazaar Ramadhan is the best! We went to the bazaar almost everyday for three weeks in a row then it gets boring and we settled for home cooked meal. Raya this year is special for me as I get to celebrate my first raya being married to Dedi and being pregnant with you. Everybody kept asking your gender. I wish I could tell, but the doctor said I have to wait a little longer because their machine is sooooo outdated and I have to pay extra to see your gender earlier. Patience is a virtue, baby. Adam or Eve, you are mine to keep and I will love you unconditionally. Even before you were born, I have list down the names that I like and every night I would ask Dedi if he likes the name that I chose. After some time, we chose a name that is gender-neutral. Muhammad _____________ Iman or Nur _____________ Iman. That blank space will be filled when I see your faceeeeee there's not a thing that I would change cs you're amazing just the way you are <3 Raya open house. Dang we sure eat a lot, we mixed a little bit of everything and nomnomnom until one fine day... I suffocate. I'm not really sure what is the cause but it's a mild case of asthma according to what I read on google. It might be from Kiki our cat, because just days before the incident, I hugged Kiki and she sneezed on my face and rubbed her body around my neck and on the sheets. It might be from the food that we have been eating like durian, chocolate cake, bakso, ketupat palas, lamb, laksa you name it. I remember having Tealive before I threw up like crazy and ended up suffocating. I had a good laugh before that but it wouldn't be the main cause hehe. Oh and we had chestnuts too. After vomiting we had BBQ for dinner then we went to sleep. I couldn't sleep because of coughing and suffocating so we slept in Tok's room for a change. Dedi and Abangs slept in our room because they need both fan and aircond to make the room cold. We only need the aircond as it helped me to breathe a bit. I woke up every 2 hours to drink water to make sure that my respiratory system is clear a bit so that I could breathe. The next day, I felt worse and I decided to go to see the doctor after having a nosebleed. The doctor said I have fever (38.6') and I was so relieved that it's not that serious. I thought I was dying. The doctor said maybe because my HB was going down again and that's why I'm experiencing all this. Now after days of taking medicine, drinking plenty of water and resting, I'm 70% healthy. I have until 10pm today to eat and drink as I have to fast. Tomorrow we have an appointment at KK. They are going to take my blood for a diabetes test and to check my HB. Hopefully everything goes well tomorrow. IF NOT, we're going to have a nice visit to KK twice a week for jab to increase my HB level. Pray for us, stay strong baby we're almost there! See you very soon love!