Now number 5

Our family is growing!
That makes 5 of us now. I'm down with first trimester as I'm writing this I am currently fourteen weeks preggers! That means I am 3 months 2 weeks preggers and my baby is the size of a peach! Let me tell you, it's not a walk in the park with this one. The day that I found out I'm pregnant, our lives changed completely. I took the test, waited for the result patiently and when the result came out, I whispered with a smile on my face.. positive.

So it's time to break the news to my husband. 
Sayang... with a sad face.
Kenapa sayang? Macam mana?
Positive....
Really? That's great! 
Then we hugged and went silent for a while. 

And I know why we went silent, we weren't ready for this. As much as we want to have a baby, we are aware that we are unstable, financially. Up till this day, I still ask him, are we ready to be parents? We. You and me. Me and him. Us. Before this, as a single parent, I have been living with my parents and for 6 years now my father has been supporting us mostly on financial. Not once I paid for kindy fees, and I really felt bad and I think it's time for us to be independant and to take care of our own family. To act as parents, to feel the struggle to raise three kids - or more, not stopping here hewhew  so that we will appreciate our parents more and understand that they did their best raising us with what they have. 

Weh tadi nak update pregnancy journey apahal emo pulak ni....................





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